Sometimes it’s hard to accept that your world is changing so quickly around you and that there’s nothing you can do about it. I’m currently going through that period of my life where I’m not a teenager anymore and I have to start figuring my life out. I’m faced with real problems and having to find real solutions, ones school most definitely did not prepare me for.
Recently I experienced a loss of someone so incredibly close to my heart, a woman who has had a significant part in my life and many others. She has added more value to my life than I could ever have wished for, and taught me valuable things about life. I miss her so much and it’s made me see life through different eyes. It’s hard to comprehend a life without her and I find daily I will go to message her things, or share with her a video that I knew would make her laugh. Recently I went for afternoon tea with my Mum on her birthday, a cafe that my Auntie would have loved. It wasn’t quite the same knowing she isn’t here to experience it.
I wish it didn’t take experiencing loss for me to realise how precious life is and how quickly it all can be taken away from you. Or to appreciate those around me and what I have. I’m finally getting to reap the rewards of blogging and working hard. Opportunities I never thought I’d ever have are coming my way and I am incredibly grateful for that, but it’s hard not being able to share them with the people of whom I’ve lost. It kind of takes away the cherry on top, you know?
I know I’ve been quiet lately and I keep trying to post more often, but I’ll be honest. It’s really hard to keep a blog going. There’s so much more that goes into it than people realise. Photographs, affiliate marketing (implementing and learning it are both incredibly time consuming), writing the content, scheduling tweets, visiting restaurants for reviews and purchasing items to review. Yes, it’s all great going out to eat and ‘just having to write about it’ but there’s a few hours of my day gone, when I could be working on my site.
The list is endless with the things I want to do with this blog, where I want to take it and how I want it to be. I wish I had time to do it all at once but the truth is, I don’t. It takes me hours per blog post, when you calculate each minute. Not to mention the behind the scenes. Bloggers are often perceived as people of whom have easy lives. All we do is type up a post, take some pretty pictures and get sent free stuff, right?
Anyway, I’m rambling. I thought I’d post a little update in case you were wondering what’s going on inside my head. But in all honesty, I really just needed to get this off my chest. It is my blog after all.